Well, here we go, I'm not in that philosophy class today. Not really sure what I want to talk about, but I've got this nasty headache that I seem to always get in Scientific Enterprise class. I think it's the professor's voice, it agitates my molecules...
But anyway, don't really want to talk about the class, since that's essentially what I have done in my other posts. The good thing about The Examined Life is that it makes me think. Typically I'll go through my day without really thinking about much, nothing deep anyway. I guess you could say I lead somewhat of a shallow life. But I've never felt like I have. Back in high school I would think about all sorts of deep topics, mainly within Theology and biblical controversies. I think that may have had to do with my more constant contact with the Bible and Bible lessons(Bible class in school, youth group, and sermons/sunday school lessons in church). Here at Gordon, I don't get that kind of everyday exposure forced on me, and I guess that has effected how much I think about it. If I'm not forced to, I won't usually delve into the Bible anymore, and that has become a problem. My spiritual life is waning, and that's especially bad if I want to pursue a life in ministry. Ever since my junior year of high school, I have felt God pushing me towards youth ministry, so that is what I have majored in. Throughout high school I tried to be as involved as I could be with my youth group and church, exposing myself to different areas of ministry(V.B.S. as a leader and a helper, junior high camp counselor, etc.) and from that I felt more inclined towards youth ministry. I believe God calls us to serve Him in ways that we will enjoy, and I have found that I enjoy youth ministry, and so I continue to pursue a career in that field. However, if I cannot bring myself to continue in my spiritual walk with the Lord, how can I be a light to young people, shining for Him? Something needs to change, and that much I know, but it is making that change that I find to be the most difficult. I don't like change, I don't think I ever have, and so forcing it upon myself is not something I am naturally inclined to do. I guess all I can do is pray for the strength to do so, and I ask that those who read this(even though I would rather you didn't) would pray for me too.
That's all for now, I might post more later today if I have more to say. Otherwise, fare thee well.
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